An Ending Marks A Beginning

2011-11-19T17:10:00.002+08:00

It is going to be Week 6 in my short semester in degree. Finals will be reaching in three weeks. I feel so nervous because I do not have time to study much as we have a lot of assignments and presentations. However, most of them are now over.

Therefore I have more time for myself now, plus to relax and study as well. I have just thought about it. It is November now, which means in two months time I will be one more year older!!! OMG!!

Anyway, this semester has really been one of the most stressful ones as I am taking 4 subjects. Anyway, I am still involved in swimming (with Noreen and Emeilee) plus I still love frisbee... >.<

So, for now, I need to buck up and catch up in studies while relaxing and have some time for games.

One more thing, I am getting more used to driving my car !! Weeee... However, I think it is still scary for my passengers.. >.< sorry!!! hehehehe..

Can't wait for holidays soon! Yeah!

Bottle half full or half empty?

2011-10-09T23:58:00.002+08:00

Although I may have almost everything anyone could have asked for, I am always envious of others. Envious of those who I had left before. I shouldn't regret. I have chosen a route and need to let go of the past.

People walk in and out of my life, some stay as really close friends. However, we are slowly going our own paths.

I feel lonely. Why? Am I asking for too much? Am I losing out?

I need support. I feel like I am falling apart slowly.

I need you now, and I wish, in the future. Be there for me. As long as you are there, I will feel calm and happy.

What to do

2011-09-26T20:51:00.004+08:00

What should I do?

It has always been long each time I post here. I have just finish my first semester in degree.

Time really flies..Three months just passed and I just took my finals last week. Degree life has been tough and I couldn't cope with it. I know myself and the difficulties I had to catch up in studies as I did slack at times. I need to work harder next semester.

For the first time I cried after taking a final paper... >.< I had no choice but to leave the answer page blank as I do not know what to even scribble on it. I feel very disappointed with myself. However, the paper was really tough and I guess not many could answer it.

Put aside the all the negative thinking.. Well there's at least good news in the past semester. I made really great new friends. First, I became friends with Eason, and both of us met with Hui Ching, joined by Hui Ni. Then I soon got to know Noreen Ann, and Emeilee who are very much like me!!(i guess@@) .. Anyway, they are the ones who have been around me and we play and study together too. ^^ Next semester would be great with most subjects taken same with some of them while all same with Hui Ni.

Plus, I will be having my Myvi over, and I can also fetch Da da all over the place! And we can go Drifting together!! WEeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Plus, I have alas obtain a scholarship and I will not give up to maintain this with my gpa! Though I might fail a subject this time, I will work doubly hard in the next coming semesters and not repeat the mistake I had done.

One thing I have learnt, which is not to take things for granted. Expect the unexpected.

Thanks to Da da for supporting me all this while too. ^^

It has been a week of holiday for me. For the last week, I have been spending my time cleaning my house and watching anime!!! Plus, choosing and deciding which laptop should I buy... @@ IN the end I decided on XPS!!! YEAH!! CAn't wait for it to arrive. <3

Today I just went to my old place, PCF for a movie with da. The place had became really old with many new shops, while the old usual shops have closed down.

However, the cinema there has always been the best cinema for me! Just watched Johnny English which was damn funny. Haha.

What else can I do during the holidays? I don't want to slack...But I can't find anything else to do.. >.<

BAck

2011-05-21T21:32:00.005+08:00

Helo I am back to this blog!! It's been like so long since I last updated this blog. I just couldn't get myself to sit down and type. Lazy me.

So, what I could say, I have already completed my Semester3 of foundation studies! So, Ill be going to continue my studies in UTAR(yea..) in Commerce Hons Accounting. @@

So far, I have not been really satisfied with my last results. I didn't do well and got the lowest, which in the end pulled my whole CGPA down(AGAIN). T.T SOBSSssss.

Tomorrow(22May), I will be going back to Kampar again for orientation week. Yeah, so many things have been happening, and there are many changes which took place. Which should I say here?

Well, I have found someone who can accept me in most of my ways which is amazing... >.< I couldn't imagine who could have tolerated me this much besides my parentss. So, yeah. Lup ya Da da!!! <3 thanks for being with me.. weeeee...angry birds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recently I have been hanging out with only close buddies(mel, shaz, elyn). Even so, I am unable to spend time with some of my friends(bel,ros) who I really miss a lot. HOwever, I have gained much experience from a part time job selling Eubiq(really cool electrical stuff).

So, I have pledge again(like super many times I always DO this=.='') to study hard and work for the best in my Degree!! WOw... Big Girl d???? @@ SWTT"" still loves swt-ing and lol-ing. and AWW..... wakakakaaka.

This is all for now. BB.. <3

Got to just stay strong and never let anything beat me down and take everything as an experience(bad or good). >.<(i keep on telling myself so that I will never fall again and let bad experiences with mistakes and regrets take over my current self)

Stressed OUT!!

2011-03-04T03:51:00.002+08:00

Ah.. After such a long time, now i am sitting here typing a post in the middle of the night. I am feeling very frustrated after a hectic week. Plus, now I am unable to sleep(I guess due to drinking the mix peng and teh peng) and my class is 9am in the morning!! It's already 4am!! T.T
Well, I am going to try to be positive here!! @@ faint!!

OKie okIE.. Anyway, I had a hard semester this time. I have been slacking and recently I had three tests in a row.. T.T argh!! I totally screwed my Micro Macro paper because I had last minute preparations, and I didn't really understood the concepts. I couldn't apply it well. Luckily, the following two papers were fine and yea, I managed them.

ANyway, TODAY 3/3 or I should say yesterday.... Was da's Birthday!!! HAppy Birthday to you(4X)! Aw.. Not much celebration on the day itself though, we just had our usual meals and talked all the way. HOwever, he got a surprise two days before that!! It was like we had all his friends(up to 15 ppl) to go to his house and surprise him with a cake ^^
Gotcha!! ^^ haahahahaha..

Anyway, I had a night of assignments and chit-chatting with my friends(admiring her worms, beetles, sugar glider, pupas and hedgehogs!! )

Ok. NOw I guess I'll have to try to sleep back again. >.< NItez...
(still have a very long and hectic weekend)

Wonderful life

2011-01-22T23:46:00.008+08:00

Life is full of wonders and surprises. ^^

I have been spending a whole week, sleeping for more than an hour in the afternoons, having large and few meals(but pricely ones, especially from the bak kut teh's stalls^^ love them!!), online(chatting, finding songs, blogging, reading people's blog=not to mention the super LAGGG internet connection=.=)..

Plus, I bought another new bag, from Jim's Fashion(actually also considered as a gift from Desmond^^Thanks!! I love it!)!!! OMG!!! I should have come to this shop earlier because the bags are like cheaper and more choices too. >.< Still I also love and appreciate the bag which Elyn bought for me recently in QB although it's more expensive.. <3 As you can see, the disneyland keychain is from darlingz Mel<3

Plus, I just got to know a new friend who has a really cool blog!!
http://utarboy.blogspot.com/

I hope to present a blog like that soon too(guess it'll be a number 11 in my 2011 resolutions). haha!! Ok. I guess it's time to stop blogging for today and get some work done before calling it a day. ^^ Goodnight readers.

P.S. I guess you do wonder how come the post's title is wonderful life. It's because I feel happiness today. Since morning, I had my band practice, I had great dinner with Dess, bought the bag to satisfy my 'wants', met with a unique blogger, and able to post my thoughts here, etc.. Probably it wouldn't make much sense to others, but to me, it's all meaningful and I really am thankful to experience all these. I will appreciate my life as well. Plus, I thank all those who always stay with me, give me support and keep me company.
I may be upset at times, but Ill definitely will not let it pull me down down down..
But Ill spring up becoming stronger 0.O Sounds so.....philosophical, weird.. AWWWWWWWwww! hahahha! ^^ NItes!

Concentrate!!!

2011-01-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

Week 1 is coming to an end!! YESH! It has ended today, 21st January 2011, Friday!! 0.0

The thing is I am still unable to concentrate and focus in revision. Plus, still in holiday mood...... >.<
What should I do!!!!??? This is driving me crazy and nuts!! *panic

I really need to push away all my problems and emotions from now on and start concentrating in my studies first!! Next, for my band, to improve my music thingy in my band, One-Third! ^^ Tomorrow will be our first practise/jam session for the year! WoooHOo!!!

However, I can't deny that it was a long and busy week too. I had to register for MUET, settle my course transfer application transfer(nervous for degree), hand in my letter to apply for change in timetable.. . ahh.. Usual busy week especially when everyone is busy too. This will be the last semester for my foundation studies. I am soOOoo super looking forward to future activities in Uni. <3

Well, now I am creating a list of my hopes and expectations for 2011 though I am kind of late.^^
It does dawns on me when dad asked me what were my new year resolutions for the year because I do not really have this in mind. I felt so 'useless' or should I say, ignorant?? Well, I was watching a show on TV last night about a group of guys who have a list of 100things to do before they die or something like that. There were many activities which were outrageous and sounds impossible, however, they still work to achieve what they want. Well, maybe it's a show, of course, however, I do believe that if we have the will to do something properly, no matter what people say, 95%, YES, it will come true and happen!
ahh.. So, here goes my first draft! O.o
1) Able to attain cgpas above 3.6
2) Improve in my music skills
3) Be more 'less shy' and more open minded in things
4) Meet more friends and be more sociable(in a positive way)
5) Retain my relationship with my closest friends, as well (do not wish to part anymore)
6) Be a better Adelyn to people
7) Have a tortoise!!
8) Have more students
9) Go on vacations (beaches/other states)
10) Lost fat in tummy! (while slowly achieving my weight gain resolution ^^V)

There! Honestly, it was quiet hard to come up with this.. >.< Wow! I should do this more often, it really gave me a realisation on how I took myself/ my life for granted. I should give myself more targets to achieve instead of just wasting off time feeling blue and down.

My last wish for today, I wish that I am able to write, speak, or send messages to people, to give them the realisation on life(just in any aspect). This is because I myself, love to read and listen to talented minds of others who actually gave me inspiration to make a change. To me, it really feels vital to have such encouragement and different viewpoints on different events or just about anything.
Plus, I had a very weird dream today. It's like I was a musically talented person having weird complicated scores in my brain, playing over and over again fastly. 0.0 Super weird. Guess I will do a research on subconscious minds now. ^^

Can't wait for coming week when I will meet my new tutorial groups especially for assignment grouping. WOoo... Everything will be fine.. Fingers crossed.
Work hard+work smart, achieve success, enjoy life!! wakakkaakakakaa XD

I am not alone??!!

2011-01-13T22:54:00.014+08:00

Yes! It's true. I have faced ups and downs especially when I used to cry often over him during semester2. I felt pain and had been upset throughout the period. Even after consulting him about my feelings and pain, he just left me like that. What kind of friend are you? Good at times, but cold as well. That's it. I felt my world coming down collapsing every time I see him treating others better than me. I used to be in that place before, but not now anymore. What have I done? For the last time I shall confess that I do really like you, I need you, and I want you to be by my side!! Almost everything I do, I think of you who was part of my life which I never appreciated before. Even seeing my phone number or just tidying my old notes in that box to cycling and walking in the park reminds me of you. It's too late now. I must let you go. Thank you for everything.

However, I now realise that I am not the only one facing this kind of situation. There are also many other people(my buddies), who also have this complications. After chatting and expressing my feelings to close ones, reading blogs and having lots of support, I should be strong and go on with my life now. I tried my best in everything I can to keep this going on, but maybe we really don't have fate?? *Hold my tears, I will accept it.
I have to go on, never give up. Although it still stings and hurt, I will give myself time to forget this, and cherish the memories we had. I JUST NEED TIME!!

Yes I do have achievements without you helping me in studies anymore. However, it's also because of your help in coursework marks. So, this new semester, I will be moving on mostly by myself and I will work myself to achieve what I am really capable of doing.

Yesh, my achievement so far. I hope to maintain it. Plus with my MUET as well in this semester. I will you proud, daddy mummy!

So people, whatever which happens, do not give up and prove yourself right! Beautifully, unregretful and powerfully. One thing for sure, I will never give up.

I would like to thanks those who were always by my side when I am down. Thanks to some who also shared their problems and situations which were almost alike with mine. Yeah, we won't give up and will live our life to the fullest. I am thankful to for my special one,:D !!Muacks!! My besties... I love you all.

P.S. Going to enjoy the last few days of holidays. Outing with Mel 2mr morning and Elyn for the day! Yeah. We're gonna rock Penang 2mr!!! Wakkaakakka!

Just like a spring. @@

Boredom

2011-01-06T21:40:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that this semester break turns out to be freaking boring. All I have done these few days are online, reading papers, morning markets, started a novel, blogging, sleeping. Well, I hope the last week will be a better week for my holidays before it ends. >.<

Kept me company today. ^^

Memories of the Semester

2010-12-31T23:05:00.001+08:00

Today is the first day of my second semester break, but it is the last day of year 2010.
Nevertheless, During my semester 2, I also had a lot of fun and joy with my buddies in Kampar.
These are some snapshots of me and my band, One-Third.

We have been quite active during the semester and faced lots of ups and downs. However, I still hope that we will be able to maintain our friendship and continue to improve ourselves. <3 One-Third!!

My Computing Technology group assignmnet members. ^^

My new iPad!! THanks to Daddy!

There's still a lot for me to post here however time is limited.@@ . I would like to thank all my friends who stayed with me throughout the year. I appreciate it a lot!! Okie!! Now, I shall countdown, about another 10minutes more to year 2011. I hope that my wishes for the year may come true as well as for my beloved ones. I love you all!!

Next year, I am going to study hard to attain what I want to, for me and my family who gave me so much. <3 Plus, there's much improvement to be done! Probably, have more improved posts in my new blog as well!